2012 Feb 27

I haven't been blogging for a while, I actually feel like I am drifting with life's current, and not exactly under control. I am defined by my job, which dictates how I spend my time and even who I make friends with, who I hang out with, where I'll be having my dinner and where and how I'll be spending my weekend. Good in a way, these are all opportunities for me to live and experience what comes along.. but I think I'm lacking in the "control". It would have been nice if I feel that I am in control of what's happening in my life, but I'm not. I'm enjoying a good life, I'm contented, but I feel that because I'm not in control, if things go wrong I may not know how to handle it.

Perhaps "control" isn't such a good word to use, perhaps "awareness" is a better word. I need to be fully aware of what's happening, and I think that would give me a sense of control if I know what's happening.

Last year was a year of awareness.. this year is the starting of who I've been in the past. I have some good emotions stored in my emotional bank from last year, I'd better constantly replenish it before it runs out..

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart~

Coughing

Not in good health.. I think due to stress and insufficient sleep. Have been coughing for a few days. Instead of working over the weekend the cough had forced me to take a break instead. Ended up sleeping the whole of Saturday.

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart ~

does having a smartphone make u smarter?

Since I hv this phone,I wonder if it changes my life. Well,I supposed I am addicted to it,trying to make full use of it to compensate for the value that I've put in. And I supposed I am now spending more time doing something all the time rather than trying to slow down.

I also discovered the hard way of how disconnected my parents are to my life compared to people who stay miles away from me. I realised it must be hard for them to hear about what I'm doing from others rather than from me...

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart~

Restless

For the first time in my life, I am actually hoping that my phone signal dies.. to signify that the conversion is successful and I can change to a new telco provider before I board the plane tomorrow.

I'm also feeling strangely restless.. because I've made an investment, so now I crave for the result, or at least to get the product in hand! I have not felt such restlessness for a long time..

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart~

IAS and IFRS

After cleaning up and throwing out my old Form 6 notes and papers, suddenly I need to do a project on financial policies.. and I suddenly recalled, I have learned about IAS before back in Form 6, and even had to memorize some of them!

Sadly, right now I can only recall that I had learned about them but I still can't really remember how to apply them. Looks like there are a lot of work to be done to get myself up to speed again.

This is really a "out of sight, out of mind" case. Nevermind, I am sure I will be able to catch-up again!

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart~

Sleepy

At work and sleepy.. This is the 4th day in a row, for "normal working schedule + traffic jam". Yesterday on the way to work I felt sleepy too, but recovered at work. Today, I felt sleepy on the way to work and is still continuing to feel sleepy after half an hour doing some administrative stuff to my laptop..

Sigh, and I thought I felt refreshed earlier this week! I must keep on conditioning my mind to think so. I should be feeling ok, as I'm not working overtime and I did have enough hours of sleep albeit continuous dreams throughout the night.. maybe the dreams are the cause of the tiredness during daytime. I haven't had so many dreams for a long time.. wonder why they are appearing now but I don't remember much of them.

Maybe just one :) I was in HK, and I had a chance to sit on a jet plane operated by Mr Chow Yuen Fatt!! Haha.. the trip was either to the Artic or Antartica (strange!!). There were other people as well including 2 of my bosses, and 2 quite elderly ladies asked another passenger to help them to check in HK immigration.. seems like they somehow got in illegally to HK to make this flight! But I woke up before the flight could take off, and actually I also wanted to get off the plane because it seemed dangerous.. from HK to the North or South Pole? On a jet plane? Without any preparation? It was just weird, but still, rather nice to have CYF as the pilot!

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart~

I&A

Attended my first I&A.. invoking the 28 Buddha's name for 21 rounds can be quite a toll on the throat.. but well, good that I've finally participated in one :)

~ttg @ Realized Tranquility of the Heart~