Dreams

This is the second time I'm writing about dreams, the first was via email, which no one replied..

Anyway, had a few dreams recently, which I remembered because they were weird, futuristc, frightening, even got a moment of betrayal by friends in yesterday's dream.

I don't really like dreams, they never told me anything, they never seemed to mean anything, and all I would get is just a bad night's sleep and wondering why I dreamt of what I dreamt of.

Like yesterday, my goodness, I could't believe I gave birth to a stillborn baby??? It's a long long way to go before I reach the age of motherhood... really really disturbing because there were other women giving birth, and I was actually feeling very sad when I see their babies and remember my own... thankfully, no pain of giving birth, the dream probably started after the baby was born. Nevertheless, I still can't believe me giving birth to a child..

I woke up several times yesterday, another dream was about me waiting for either one of two friends to pick me up, but they gave excuses and didn't, and the dream ended where I see them with two other teammates dancing on stage (apparently I was waiting for them to pick me up for the performance, and I was supposed to be one of the performers). They didn't see me downstage, but they did saw another teammate, who, like me, supposed to perform but wasn't.. so this fella onstage got such a shock.. anyway, silly of them, they were leaving their teammates behind and were expecting to keep the thing they did covered when the thing was to perform onstage? And... I can't believe I was actually going to dance on stage in that dream????

Another dream a few days ago, this is the futuristic one.. I was carrying with me a thumbdrive and a digital camera, for whatever reason I really do not know.. I guess they must have some kind of eveidence or important stuffs inside, the whole dream was like a thriller, me running around to get these two piece of digital device to duno where, and part of the city was already "flooded" by a man-made-water vehicle?? Serious, it was shown on the TV in my dream, the man drove in a water-made vehicle! And, like in the twister or whatever movie, people were running away from it. One part I love about the dream, I was running, and running on air... haha, as if flying..

There was another dream when I was also escaping from something, and I was carrying a thick red book, (I think it was a Bible), which I guarded so closely as if it were my life.. funny... I can't believe that I couldn't let go of a bible.. maybe I was a Christian once in my so many past lives? The dream kept me thinking for a few days, was I meant to be a Christian? Which, till today, I am not (in my present life)

And the recent most haunting dream... my paternal granny visited me in my dream.. she looked good and was smiling, she didn't speak, but was trying to communicate using sign language, which regretfully, I have forgotten... a series of hand movements... and then there was this huge calendar-like thing supposed to be arranged or opened or whatever, once I could use my fingers to repeat the hand movements to form something.. too much of Da Vinci code, maybe.. however, one of my relatives (either aunt or female cousin or other female relative) said she couldn't help me to the hand thingy but could recite the thing which happened to be either the heart sutra or the great compassionate mantra (I can't remember)... I am still wondering... what was my granny trying to say...

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