Transitions...

Just went through what I had blogged before. Seems like I blogged quite a lot. I see myself blogging about my first job to my current job - which is not anymore current - "most recent" would be a more appropriate phrase.

Had 3 jobs since I graduated, had worked quite closely with 4 organizations, which were 4 different industries altogether - marketing with a FMCG co, research with an academic institution, event organizing with a non-profit organisation, sales support with a bank. I'm now moving to the next one, which is again another different industry.

Wow, looking back, my life is not that dull after all.

Sometimes omen does make sense. The most current transition has not been easy. It even resulted in I didn't get what I finally decided on (which is probably the sign that life is finally hinting that I should take THIS route).

Life goes on, quoting from one of my previous posts. And to thank all my friends who have spent hours listening to my undecisiveness on this subject, which is ever-changing from day to day for about a week or two, just to let you all know, the common advice given to me by you is to decide on something, walk down the road and don't look back. There are no right or wrong decisions.

My feelings now - both excited and nervous - it didn't occur to me how much "change in my life and lifestyle" I've committed myself to. Was that even me during the interview? Well, things will work out - if it doesn't I'll learn something as well. I'm still young anyway!

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My Malaysian English

Ever since someone pointed out I tend to use "lah" a lot, I began to notice the way I speak.. It's true, my English is so Malaysianised!

I'm also noticing how people communicate, sometimes some people just keep on beating around the bush without getting to the main point. Others have already pointed out the MAIN POINT, yet there are some who would just like to "be heard", and went to elaborate on the main point, and talking as if was contributing to the discussion when it actually made the whole thing worse - from clear-cut to confusion...

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I have A LOT to learn in terms of communication - verbal and written. No one's perfect, and because of the fact no one's perfect, I'm learning from others, and I hope I can forgive others and myself. Will start to improve by being more observant... be a student every moment and learn from my surroundings...

I do hope I'll be a better person. I'm certainly not one right now, but I do aspire to be a better person to myself and others... not only for my own sake only, but for the people around me... hope to spare them the frustration because of what I do. So IF I made mistakes, do point it out like in the example I gave in the beginning of this entry. Please help me LAH!

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I am grateful for...

My fingers...

Played the piano for an hour plus this morning, after I'm done, couldn't imagine how life would be without these fingers... Could not type, could not write, could not do handicrafts, could not tie bracelets, could not fold origami objects, etc.

Yesterday, on the "Finding Angels" TV programme, they showed disabled people in a home in Ipoh, they have 68 such disabled people living there and are appealing for bricks and cement so that they can build a new home on another piece of land, since the land that they're occupying now is going to be taken back by the landlord.. reminded me of IDC's visit to the Rumah Sinar Harapan in Kuala Kubu Baru..

I'm grateful that:
- I know my name
- I'm conscious of what I'm doing
- I have strong and healthy bones
- I have my organs intact
- I can control my thoughts and emotions
- I can take care of myself and other people
- I am not a burden to other people i.e. dependent on other people for care in daily acitivites
- I have people who care for me
- I have my family
- I'm able to enjoy life
- I'm able to make decisions on how I want to live my life

For all these are what the people living in these homes are lack of... We are so lucky...

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I've Finally Decided...

...to move on... despite being so undecisive about it at first, I feel like such a failure in submitting just one letter!!

I'm taking a very big risk... stay or don't stay I'm taking big risk, though the risk for the decision I'm making is higher.

Well... looking forward to the development in the next few weeks, in next month, and this new year...

Dreams

Perhaps there is something in dreams. Though I forget what I dream about these days, very quickly, within moments after I wake up, there were some dreams in the past - which seems to come true. Well, half realised and half not

Going into 2007 with some confusions, some good news, some bad news.

Have not been so alive for quite some time, and have not been so confused also.

Maybe I think too much...

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