I'm now waiting for flight 3K688 (Jetstar), which has been delayed for 2 hours. Like me, there are 2 other people who are using laptops.. it's quite surprising how the world changes. 15 years ago I was in high school learning about Lotus, Word & DB. 10 years ago I was in university with a non-wifi laptop. 5 years ago wifi laptop was an in-thing, and now, almost every laptop in the market would be equipped with wifi.
Today seems to be a busy day in KLIA, quite unexpected. I thought the crowd is usually from Friday night to Mon morning - but recent travels in the middle of the week prove me wrong. Nowadays flying is so convenient, comparing to how the days have been in the past, when flying is a luxury.
I'm looking forward to 5 years later, 10 years later.. etc, I'd love to see how the world changes until the day I leave this world..
Talking about leaving this world, I wonder how I would feel then, would I feel as if I've fulfilled what I need to do, or would I feel regret?
ttg
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Sunday, September 13, 2009
It's Been A While
It's been a while since I've last blogged. How time flies, and how everything seems to be so distant and so dreamlike - it feels so vague that I am doubting if things happened?
It's been one year since we started the project, and the whole thing has kind of ended now, at least for our team. Everyone has moved on. Took me some time to move on too, but I guess I am moving on right now.
My one week leave has allowed me to fill in some pieces in life's never-ending jigsaw puzzle. I also learned that when an aspiration is made, it will be answered someday, perhaps not in the way we have expected, but the answer revealed will be more profound.
Some lessons learned:
- Forgive myself and others, and move on
- I can't control the way people act, react, feel, etc; but I can control my actions, thoughts and speech.
- Difficult people are everywhere - they should not be the reason for a change/escape. Unless I learn how to deal with them, no number of changes will be sufficient
- I need to give more care and love to myself. I do not need to think I'm doing things on behalf of others. This is not selfishness, if I do not care for myself I will not have the capacity to care for others.
- If I do not know what to expect, what the final result should be - then I should fall on the next best guidance - intention. At least get my conscience and intention right, act based on the intention, and let life present the final result
Lastly, however bitter the answer I am getting now, somehow I know it's the answer to the prayer I made to Guan Yin, at Le Shan in Chengdu. It has indeed been a difficult journey to arrive at such "ending/answer".
Well, my advice to myself - remember what I asked for, remember my intention, and I will see the reason behind the answers...
ttg
It's been one year since we started the project, and the whole thing has kind of ended now, at least for our team. Everyone has moved on. Took me some time to move on too, but I guess I am moving on right now.
My one week leave has allowed me to fill in some pieces in life's never-ending jigsaw puzzle. I also learned that when an aspiration is made, it will be answered someday, perhaps not in the way we have expected, but the answer revealed will be more profound.
Some lessons learned:
- Forgive myself and others, and move on
- I can't control the way people act, react, feel, etc; but I can control my actions, thoughts and speech.
- Difficult people are everywhere - they should not be the reason for a change/escape. Unless I learn how to deal with them, no number of changes will be sufficient
- I need to give more care and love to myself. I do not need to think I'm doing things on behalf of others. This is not selfishness, if I do not care for myself I will not have the capacity to care for others.
- If I do not know what to expect, what the final result should be - then I should fall on the next best guidance - intention. At least get my conscience and intention right, act based on the intention, and let life present the final result
Lastly, however bitter the answer I am getting now, somehow I know it's the answer to the prayer I made to Guan Yin, at Le Shan in Chengdu. It has indeed been a difficult journey to arrive at such "ending/answer".
Well, my advice to myself - remember what I asked for, remember my intention, and I will see the reason behind the answers...
ttg
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Friday, May 01, 2009
Happy Labour Day
How I've been spending the day so far:
1. Went to MPH Warehouse Sales at Bangunan TH, Jalan 13/4, PJ
2. Tried out GPS to get to Jalan 13/4 :D
3. Bought 6 books
4. Brought my parents to eat Teochew mee sua
5. Came home and finished reading A Thousand Splendid Suns
6. Slept for a couple of hours
7. Woke up and regret why I didn't buy "Chronicles of Narnia" set which costs only RM95?
8. Went online, went facebooking - updated bookshelf, visit my fluff pet Little Xiang
9. After this plan to read more :)
ttg
1. Went to MPH Warehouse Sales at Bangunan TH, Jalan 13/4, PJ
2. Tried out GPS to get to Jalan 13/4 :D
3. Bought 6 books
4. Brought my parents to eat Teochew mee sua
5. Came home and finished reading A Thousand Splendid Suns
6. Slept for a couple of hours
7. Woke up and regret why I didn't buy "Chronicles of Narnia" set which costs only RM95?
8. Went online, went facebooking - updated bookshelf, visit my fluff pet Little Xiang
9. After this plan to read more :)
ttg
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Decision
Well... it's quite a clear cut decision to be made. Situation 1 forced me to be in Situation 2. So Situation 2 is not what I want - but I'm in it to make up for Situation 1. What should I do? Get rid of both... now... how should I proceed with this........
ttg
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Breaking
Things just have to happen all at the same time... I don't know how much longer I can stand....
ttg
ttg
Sunday, March 01, 2009
Wishing for peace of mind
Been slogging through work for the past 3 weeks, and going through another change in life (or more specifically in my job), whether I am prepared for it or not.
Waiting for someone's comment on the pack now, I'm sure it won't be good, sigh... I'm kind of feeling "stagnant" right now... I don't want the clock to tick... I don't want to move forward, cause it's all WORK when the clock ticks... How I wish that time would just stop... how I wish I can be somewhere just on my own, with my own thoughts... no work commitment, no work, perhaps not even friends? I don't really know... I just feel... empty (unfortunately it's not the Nibbana type of empty!)
ttg
Waiting for someone's comment on the pack now, I'm sure it won't be good, sigh... I'm kind of feeling "stagnant" right now... I don't want the clock to tick... I don't want to move forward, cause it's all WORK when the clock ticks... How I wish that time would just stop... how I wish I can be somewhere just on my own, with my own thoughts... no work commitment, no work, perhaps not even friends? I don't really know... I just feel... empty (unfortunately it's not the Nibbana type of empty!)
ttg
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