Turtle

"Imagine that the whole earth was covered with water, and a man was to throw a yoke with a hole in it into the water. Blown by the wind, that yoke would drift north, south, east and west. Now, suppose that once in hundred years a blind turtle would rise to the surface. What do you think? Would that turtle put his head through the hole in the yoke as he rose to the surface once in a hundred years?"

"It is unlikely Lord."

"Well, it is just as unlikely that one will be born as a human being; it is just unlikely that a Tathagata, a Noble One, a fully enlightened Buddha should arise in the world; and it is just as unlikely that the Dhamma and discipline of the Tathagata should be taught. But now you have been born as a human being, a Tathagata has arisen and the Dhamma has been taught. Therefore, strive to realize the Four Noble Truths."

Saturday, December 27, 2008

Stop Comparing, Stop Judging, Stop Striving, Stop Thinking of I

(I will work on the "positives of the negatives" above, later... else it may end up as a Pink Elephant syndrome, but right now I just want to write on the stops above)

These are things which I realized in the past couple of days... in fact, it's really past couple of days... things that I realized since Friday morning till now.

Stop Comparing
I bought some books from PageOne in HK, for HKD300 - and I realized I can buy the same set of books for RM60 here. Well, what's done is done... I felt "something" because I have made a loss in the transaction. But I guess I can just stop seeing them as the same thing... I have bought it in HK, at a time when I wasn't quite happy, and it has served its purpose, making me happy on that day and I have started to enjoy the books too... Sometimes it may be worthwhile to compare, but perhaps there are times when things are best seen as they are without comparison to others... not to mention the things may change.. one day object A is better than object B... and one fine day in the future object B may develop more positive aspects than object A... because object B has unseen potential as at today...

Stop Judging
Stop being biased! How many times have I "cut" a person's ideas off because I was being biased, being reminded of how that person used to be in the past and not letting that person have a chance to put forward his/her idea, or a chance to do something different? Countless times... and on Christmas Day I do not know what struck me but I wanted to apologize to someone... I haven't done so yet, cause I guess I am still not very clear on how I should approach the situation - have to be careful... I'll have long working relationships with some of these people. I must have hurt people, and I would not like to be in the same situation of not being listened to...

Stop Striving
My mom finally told me she is not happy with my job. She doesn't like to see me spending hours in front of the laptop. She doesn't like to see my "pale face" everytime I come back home, which she says is getting more and more pale. She doesn't like to hear me working till late at night, have no time to sleep and did not go out during the weekends when I am abroad. And she tells me not to strive so much.. what would I get end of the day? Another promotion? Not that I get paid that much anyway now... Is it really worth it? Well, actually no need for my mom to raise the issue. I'm not feeling exactly in my dream job either, just that I have a mission to accomplish in my current job... and I will move on... it's a matter of time... Sigh... what do I get end of the day by working day and night, I feel it now, I earn more but I don't have a chance to spend. And do I really need the money anyway?

Stop Thinking of I
I have some "competitive advantage" in my current assignment, and while it sometimes help me to move forward, I am not tasked to do things I don't like to do, I think it's contributing to my ego as well. I'm not sure how much my ego has grown, and I'm not really sure the effect of it on my fellow colleagues and friends. But the ego is there... I really need to tone it down... Other people have feelings too... stop thinking I am working too hard.. just stop my thoughts from revolving around myself...

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