Turtle

"Imagine that the whole earth was covered with water, and a man was to throw a yoke with a hole in it into the water. Blown by the wind, that yoke would drift north, south, east and west. Now, suppose that once in hundred years a blind turtle would rise to the surface. What do you think? Would that turtle put his head through the hole in the yoke as he rose to the surface once in a hundred years?"

"It is unlikely Lord."

"Well, it is just as unlikely that one will be born as a human being; it is just unlikely that a Tathagata, a Noble One, a fully enlightened Buddha should arise in the world; and it is just as unlikely that the Dhamma and discipline of the Tathagata should be taught. But now you have been born as a human being, a Tathagata has arisen and the Dhamma has been taught. Therefore, strive to realize the Four Noble Truths."

Sunday, December 25, 2005

What/where is the centre of my life?

To make myself "effective", I have been reading the book "7 Habits of Highly Successful People" by Stephen Covey for... I guess it's more than a year now? I somehow got to the third or fourth habit in the initial reading... then stopped reading... then have to read the book all over again from the first habit, anyway, it makes more sense though when you read things for the second time.

It's going to be 2006 soon. Perhaps I should really sit down at year end to answer some of the questions posed by Stephen Covey. I mean, no point reading and saying that I know these are the things he talked about in that book - know but no action is equivalent to don't know

The book mentioned things like work-centred, family-centred, possession-centred, enemy-centred... the advice is to be principle-centred, because if your life is centred on principles and values, it'll be a roadmap, to guide in life and in making decisions.

Maybe, maybe that's what I'm lacking, I don't have a fixed centre. Or my "centre"s keep on changing! My age is about to be a quarter of the century soon, and I'm still floating around. Must admit that I'm lazy to plan for my future, as the saying goes - failing to plan is planning to fail.

I'm actually not doing that badly in real life, just that when it comes to times when erm, the "mood swings" time, I'd kind of "close" myself off until the blues go away... This time the mood-swing lingers for a while, don't know whether it's the office or my colleagues or my mood swings that cause me repeating bouts of flu and sore throat. And now I'm on a five-day antibiotics, the doc gave me only five antibiotic tablets and ten tablets for running nose (five for day, and five for night)... and this cost me double the regular medical fee because of the supposedly very strong antibiotics.. into my third day now, let's see how much good it will do for me... what a waste... holiday season and I'm sick!

Next week will be on leave on 30th and 31st... maybe I'll think about what's the centre of my life...
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turtlegurl said...

the "who i am" that i know is someone who changes too quickly, and doesn't even know what she wants out of life... living one day at a time without something to hang on too... doesn't seems like living, does it?

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